It is about 6 hours since my first transcranial stimulation session, and I am rapidly forgetting what it was like. I don’t want to forget because it was so interesting, but trying to set it in my memory, it begins to ossify. It helped to compare it to the appointment I had an hour later, which involved a trip to the hairdresser for a touch up of my graying roots, something I do every 5 weeks. Waiting for the color to set takes about 20 minutes, and usually I ask the colorist to put plastic side pieces on my glasses so I can read while I wait. This time I forgot about the glasses, as the colorist disappeared, cell phone on ear. So I just waited, and although I have a pretty busy mind, it was really really boring, and I couldn’t wait for it to be over. Unlike my transcranial stimulation session which was like maybe a kind of trip or journey, and always interesting. Maybe even a “trip” in the other sense of the word, during which my brain was behaving interestingly. Early on, I noticed my eyes seemed to be competing for space on the wall, which bothered me less as the session continued, and sometimes I closed my eyes. I noticed musical phrases, didn’t hear, but imagined them, at first dull ones, later Pavarotti singing "La Donna E Mobile”, then phrases I guess I made up. That didn’t interfere with noticing other phenomena - like having a new insight into my writing of a screenplay, clarifying the premise, which has to be clear for the story to work. And knowing I should find a writing group. I had some realizations about my own past insecurities, but as though they were gone, replaced by a kind of “who cares” feeling, more than that, a feeling of solid confidence. And there were periods of just noticing different states, feelings, hard to describe but all interesting and not at all negative. In fact it was lovely and fun. Like a mind romp. It started somewhere, went other places, started small and got more interesting, changing, at times feeling deeply relaxing. So how do I feel now? Like getting together with a few friends to celebrate.
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